Tango off a cliff - I witness my own death and find liberation

Three weeks into dancing Tango I had a lucid dream, which shifted my experience in a dramatic way.

To this day, I still have flashbacks of the dream in which I witnessed my own death, and my own liberation from the attachment to being human.

Now, of course, I have an attachment to life… to being human… but when I feel gripped by an overwhelming experience, I often remember the moment when my car flew off of the cliff and purposefully let go into Awareness.

It’s a bit of a long story, but if you’d like to Tango Down this portion of the Rabbit Hole, read on.

In the dream, I was driving my car down a winding mountain road when I began to lose control of the steering. The car would fishtail off the road, and then veer back on course, then off again.

The steering wheel felt loose, like on a bumper car at an amusement park. I was scared. I tried to slow down, but the brakes didn’t work either.

My perspective began to shift. At one moment, I would be in the car driving. In the next moment I would see the car from above, like in a high-speed car chase scene in a movie.

When I was inside the car, trying to regain control as it spun 180 degrees and careened backwards down the mountainside, I was terrified – racing heart, tight shoulders, a death-grip on the steering wheel.

But when I was viewing the scene from above, I felt completely detached – no emotion or concern at all.

My perspective shifted several times between the two “realities.”
Everything felt very “real.” I could feel the jarring ride as I bounced off-road, my body clenching in fear.

I could hear the breaking of the tree branches as I crashed through them, the revving of the engine as the car wheels left the ground. Then the breakthrough happened.

I was aware of the car crashing through a white, wooden fence and falling free from the mountain. At the precise moment I crashed through the fence, I awoke within the dream.

I could feel the car free falling. I knew the life I had been living would be over when the car crashed into the ground, smashing and scattering into smithereens. I could see the horror before it unfolded, but I felt no attachment, no judgment.

I simply… was… awake within a dream… about my own awakening. Profound.

I could sense the transition that was about to occur between living in human form and simply existing as awareness and energy. I had a cognitive thought that went something like this; “When we die, our energy carries over. Be at peace. All is well. Be free.”

And in an instant, I was.

I heard my True Nature say to my ego, in a silent voice, “I am awareness.”
There was Gratitude for the life I had lived. There was a heart opening that expanded beyond verbal comprehension.

I simply LET GO.
Free.
Light.
Amazing.

I could see the stars pulling away, as the car continued to free-fall, tail first, into oblivion, and I felt a “peace that passes all understanding." There was no fear, only perfect Love.

That’s when I woke to find myself in bed with my Pug dog Manny, grunting in my face, asking for his morning kibble.

I was still lucid dreaming - rather lucid living, awakened in my body, witnessing myself as I got out of bed, walked to the kitchen, fed the dog, opened the laptop, and began to type these words.

Soon it will be time to go into the world, where it is so easy to "fall asleep" again.
THAT is why I dance Argentine Tango. In perfect Tango moments there is no me, there is no you, there is only Awareness and connection to the Divine. There is only perfect Love.

* Thank you to Jay Rabe who read the above, story and emailed needed edits.